soo 139.6 this morning
thats alright i guess...
need to work my ass
off today to insure
that im 138 tomorrow
so then i can get down
to 135 for saturday
maybe even less!
we shall weight and see.
soo today is the visitatoin for my friend who died...
I dont want to go
becuase i dont
want to hear
ppl talking
about
him
and i
dont want
to have to watch
everyone cry... cuz u know
i would.
cant i pray for him in my heart?
isnt that good enough?
I dont want to seem
disrespectful tho.
I'dk everythings
messed up...
soo i cleaned up
all my thinspo pics
i used to only have
on album with 500 pics
gradualy deleted some
down to 300
so i ended up
making 4 albums in one
bones, arms/legs, body, and quotes
40 images in each. soo 160 in total.
nice and neet :] you know ill
add more. what else
would i do?
eat?
haha not likely.
i do need to eat something
b4 i work out. wouldent
want to damadge
my body any
more then
i have
already.
If I'm 138 tomorrow
you dont know how happy I will be.
to be honest...
on the 16th i weighed 144.5
today is the 19th and im 139.6
3 days i dropped 4.9lbs!
thats almost 5lbs!
So if i was
138
thats 6.5lbs in 4 days.
i need to be 138 tomorrow
I think I'll have one of my
low cal smoothies.
then workout.
maybe add
in some
pro
powder.
cuz its easyer to burn fat with more muscle.
wish i had pinapple...
thats the lowest cal
i have bluberries.
and they clean
ur system
so maybe ill do that
blueberrie banana maybe?
that would be 85..
plus the protein
would bee
175...
thats so much tho...
but then I can work out.
alot... and have tea
after? boost my
metabolism
more?
I guess.
Think I'll dance!
to burn it all! i burn at least 300cals dancing! :]
perfect!!!
hope ur all doing well
and thanks for being there
for me when my friend died..
it means alot.
i know i seem okay
but im really hurting...
hes in a better place... maybe?
Replies:
Thin or not: It sucks alot... but thanks for your support! I really do miss him... Hope you never have to go through this darling.
Emma Pheonix: Thanks so much! Its hard, and I had nightmares last night... but I know hes in a better place. I will never forget that boy <3 Id hug you right now if I could!
Time for dance thinspo!
Bones are white and pure...
I want my bones to show
I'm sorry about your friend, I hope you'll be okay with it and that it doesn't affect you too bad.
ReplyDeleteLove the last picture :) xx
Once the visitation is over you can grieve in your own way, I find that's always best, being in a room full of people talking about the person who is gone always feels so strange. I really hope you have a good day despite the visitation <3
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