Me and my boyfriends 2 year is coming up on the 13th. I should be happy, but I'm not cuz he wont be hear, cuz he is being forced to go with his fam to the USA for his sisters soccer tournament... so now were celebrating on the 11th. Sooner, so I need to look good better. No binging no purging, just now cals.
No matter how little I eat, everry morning when I wake up, I still feel fat. I loose weight, you can tell, but I have realized it will never be good enough. 111, thats my goal one day. 130 by the 10th, then you get to see pictures of my growtesk body, great.
I'm sorry if this has been depressing or monotone or just.... being a "party pooper" but I really needed to get something off my chest.
I love you guys sooooo much! <3
when will I get there
when will I be happy
when will I love me...